ONEDERLAND!!!

Hello onederland, it's nice to meet you.  I like you a lot.  Let's never part.

I am so happy to have reached my short term goal #1.
I was getting worried that my body was fighting against me from getting this far.  I worked quite hard for the latter part of the week, after being not too good at eating or exercise over NYE/NYD.  I did the tworkout for the first time ever this week!  I also have done A LOT of core exercises.  My sides are still sore.
New Zumba class starts tomorrow, I am sooooo excited.  I freaking love Zumba.  It's a no fail exercise class.

NOW, I am going on vacation one week from today.  I am going to be on track for the week coming up till that point.  My plan on vacation (disneyworld) is to make healthier choices and stop eating when I am full. I want to enjoy myself, I haven't been on an away vacation in 8 years.  I don't want to ruin my vacation by being pre-occupied with food.  I just have to not lose my brain.  (this happens a lot) :)

Next short term goal - get to 70 lbs lost.  4.4 pounds to go.

I will do it.

Struggling

I had intentions of going into 2011 with a loss.  It was going well, excercising and eating well.  For the last two days we have had company over.  I don't mean over for a couple of hours, they come over for 6-10 hours.  This means more than one meal I am providing for, or going out for.  On New Year's day friends came over to visit at 1pm.  I put out snacks, (crackers and dip, dainties) but they were more hungry than that, so I reheated chili, taquitos, egg rolls, garlic sausage, cheese, pickles.  We watched movies until 5:30ish, then everyone wanted to watch "Despicable Me".  So then I made cheese pizza's and a shrimp appetizer pack.  Now while I was busy working in the kitchen, I wasn't sedentary, and I didn't eat my face off.  But there were no healthy choices really.  Had I known they were coming over, I would have made sure to have a veggie tray or something like it.  Now there is really no food left in my house, which is good and bad.....because.......
Yesterday, we went shopping.  I got some cute shoes! 


Shoes for the Wedding!  :)



And a Yoga outfit (in size L!!!)  and an outfit for the wedding in Cocoa Beach.  I was going to use gift cards that I got for Christmas, but the network was down that they use to cash in the gift cards.  I had to come back in 1 hour.  Just enough time for.....Lunch!  We went to Chicken Chef.  I ordered the grilled chicken sandwich with a side salad.  The plate comes out........with fries.  DAMN.  So I ate all the fries.  Booooooo.  (I even tried and the universe foiled me....)  Then the next set of friends phones and wants to come over.  I am not cooking again after the day before....so now I know we are going out for dinner too.  DAMN.  We went to Red Lobster, I ordered the mussels appetizer and the grilled shrimp dinner.  I ate the mussles (that came with garlic toast and it was delicious) and 2 cheesy garlic buns.  I ate my salad with dressing on the side.  I had 2 shrimp from my dinner plate and packed the rest up.  Now, I know I have made better choices then I ususally would have.  But I can't help but feel like I didn't do good enough.

I have a hard time controlling myself when out for a treat, we have been really good lately with not going out for dinner, so 2 meals out in one day is a huge treat.  I am afraid to get on the scale, and weigh in is in 2 days....I cannot undo what I have eaten in 2 days without starving myself and excercising for hours....


Just frustrated with food right now.  I wish it was easier to eat healthy at holiday time....if I didn't have to eat to live, this would be alot easier......AND Disneyworld is in 9 days....I wanted to be in onederland by then, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen either...grrrrrrr. 2011 is going to be a fight I see....